Tt's it..the end of my honeymoon period
time to get serious..last day of classes for NIE tdy
i haf the rest of the wk to relax before the real thing begins
28/29 May: Discipline Course
4-15 June: Induction programme for graduating NIE trainees
18 June: Report to PSS
20-22 June: Staff meetings
25th June: Start of term as trained teacher in PSS
gonna be teachin PE n Maths plus extra lower Sec Geog classes
Discipline Comm - prob Level DM for Sec 4/5
NPCC teacher-in-charge
this is the real deal man
on another note, found a quote 2 describe my course of actions in my life
"People mistakenly assume that their thinking is done by their head; it is usally done by the heart which first dictates the conclusion, then commands the head to provide the reasoning that will defend it." Anthony De Mello
Wednesday 23 May 2007
Monday 21 May 2007
holding the king n ace of spades
had a so-so time last weekend
went to cafe del mar on sat nyt...nice plc but to quite boring otherwise
juz sat ard n talked..the music's not my kinda music
got hungry n sleepy n finally left by 130 am.
haf u eva had the feeling of pure bliss only to be woken up wif a hard slap of reality? i had one of those recently. i had a great time, feelin wonderful, havin the time of my life, but it was only a straight flush when the other side has a royal flush. so wen the cards were shown i was left to rue my luck. n i tell it's no fun. wen ur heart drops all the way to the floor, plus u urself stepping on it, it's no joke. ur whole body juz feels like curling up n hiding under a stone for the rest of ur life.
it's no one's fault but my own. tt's the shitty part. cant push the blame to someone else.
went to lepak last nyt wif my best fren. we got to talkin how our lives had changed over the years n where we'll c ourselves in 10 yrs time. conclusion, we've gotten nowhere. for me, i dunno wat i was too caught up wif in the past that i'm like dis now. i'm turnin 30 soon n for most ppl, life stability should be a given now. yet i'm struggling day to day. i haf no talent to show for. i'm tone deaf so playin music is out of the question. i cant sing for nuts. hmm, mebe for nuts can la..sing to the monkeys n they'll throw me nuts. i cant play any musical instrument. i dun even noe wat i'm good at. if only i'd been more focused in a certain area in the past years from when i was young i myt haf made somthin of myself. mebe a national takraw player. mebe i'd gotten my honours n be in a highly respected engineering post. mebe i'd gotten married n had 3 kids by now. mebe i'd gotten my own house n car..mebe mebe mebe..there's this saying tt goes ard "those who cant do, teach"
ppl say there's always a reason for sumthin happening. i've yet to find the reason for my life. theres juz so many whys ryt now. mebe it's juz my human nature showin itself now. not contented wif the way things are. always wanting more. y more? mebe it's bcoz things r not turning out the way i picture them to b. well, ppl tell me it's no use cryin over spilt milk, juz go milk some more cows but the cows in my ranch r not wat i wan...well mebe some of them r.
these analogy may only mean anythin to some ppl. 9 spades da tutup, tgk camne la eh.
went to cafe del mar on sat nyt...nice plc but to quite boring otherwise
juz sat ard n talked..the music's not my kinda music
got hungry n sleepy n finally left by 130 am.
haf u eva had the feeling of pure bliss only to be woken up wif a hard slap of reality? i had one of those recently. i had a great time, feelin wonderful, havin the time of my life, but it was only a straight flush when the other side has a royal flush. so wen the cards were shown i was left to rue my luck. n i tell it's no fun. wen ur heart drops all the way to the floor, plus u urself stepping on it, it's no joke. ur whole body juz feels like curling up n hiding under a stone for the rest of ur life.
it's no one's fault but my own. tt's the shitty part. cant push the blame to someone else.
went to lepak last nyt wif my best fren. we got to talkin how our lives had changed over the years n where we'll c ourselves in 10 yrs time. conclusion, we've gotten nowhere. for me, i dunno wat i was too caught up wif in the past that i'm like dis now. i'm turnin 30 soon n for most ppl, life stability should be a given now. yet i'm struggling day to day. i haf no talent to show for. i'm tone deaf so playin music is out of the question. i cant sing for nuts. hmm, mebe for nuts can la..sing to the monkeys n they'll throw me nuts. i cant play any musical instrument. i dun even noe wat i'm good at. if only i'd been more focused in a certain area in the past years from when i was young i myt haf made somthin of myself. mebe a national takraw player. mebe i'd gotten my honours n be in a highly respected engineering post. mebe i'd gotten married n had 3 kids by now. mebe i'd gotten my own house n car..mebe mebe mebe..there's this saying tt goes ard "those who cant do, teach"
ppl say there's always a reason for sumthin happening. i've yet to find the reason for my life. theres juz so many whys ryt now. mebe it's juz my human nature showin itself now. not contented wif the way things are. always wanting more. y more? mebe it's bcoz things r not turning out the way i picture them to b. well, ppl tell me it's no use cryin over spilt milk, juz go milk some more cows but the cows in my ranch r not wat i wan...well mebe some of them r.
these analogy may only mean anythin to some ppl. 9 spades da tutup, tgk camne la eh.
Sunday 13 May 2007
Friday was my last day of practicum...a little sad to leave the skl a little early but hey, i'm posted back there anyways....
now bak to NIE for 2 weeks of classes then 1 week break then 2 more weeks of induction then report to skl liao. sigh, no holiday for me.
well here r some pics i managed to snap
Nadiah n Shi Hua, my fellow practicumees. Good luck in their new skls. Hope to c u gals ard. Thank u for keepin me cmpy in the last ten weeks. will miss u gals.
now bak to NIE for 2 weeks of classes then 1 week break then 2 more weeks of induction then report to skl liao. sigh, no holiday for me.
well here r some pics i managed to snap
Nadiah n Shi Hua, my fellow practicumees. Good luck in their new skls. Hope to c u gals ard. Thank u for keepin me cmpy in the last ten weeks. will miss u gals.
This is Ying Xuan, the bubbly relief teacher. Good luck in NUS. Stay bimbotic, pinkie. hehe.
To Ida n Faz, the lively Malay language relief teachers. Good luck in your future endeavours.
Wednesday 9 May 2007
Friday 4 May 2007
good bad right wrong
hmmm....choices
we all haf choices in life and the choices we make r wat shapes us. either we reap the rewards tt come wif wat we chose or we live wif its consequences. however, sometimes we r forced to make choices tt we r unsure of. or ones tt will make us unhappy. n we'll tend to regret it later, thinkin to ourselves tt we cld haf given ourselves more time to make a better judged decision.
but is there ever such a thing as too late? decisions cld have been made but isnt it really up to our own selves to overturn such decisions. even if things have been done, we cld always make the effort to make things better or make things right. wat do we base our choices on in the first plc?
Life is all abt learning. we neva stop learning. wrong choices teach us to make better informed ones in the future. ppl learn from mistakes and mature by adapting their decision making process. right choice, wrong choice. good choice, bad choice. actuali these r subjective aren't they? at e end of it all, u alone measure ur own choices n rate them according to ur own standards. then there's the natural choice n forced choice. wat eva it is, it all boils down to fate n destiny. the type of choices available to one's self is predetermined n y these choices appear is still a mystery to many. we make decisions evry single day of our lives but do we eva stop to think abt evry thing tt we decide. is eating nasi lemak versus mee rebus the ryt choice or was it a bad choice.
wat i'm trying to say is tt sometimes, we shldnt judge a person by the choices he/she makes. to us it may be wrong but to him/her it may be right. one man's meat is another man's poison. how do we ourselves decide whether the choice we make is correct? in my opinion, there's no ryt nor wrong. decide, action, adapt. the important thing is not to regret one's own choice. for me, it has been simple enuf, choose the road tt makes me happy, even if down the road it may turn sour, i'll wait for another fork in the road and pick it up fm there. make the best of evry situation n find the lining behind evry dark cloud. there's juz not enuf time to waste it on being stressed out. however, i've been guilty of tt too...haha
we all haf choices in life and the choices we make r wat shapes us. either we reap the rewards tt come wif wat we chose or we live wif its consequences. however, sometimes we r forced to make choices tt we r unsure of. or ones tt will make us unhappy. n we'll tend to regret it later, thinkin to ourselves tt we cld haf given ourselves more time to make a better judged decision.
but is there ever such a thing as too late? decisions cld have been made but isnt it really up to our own selves to overturn such decisions. even if things have been done, we cld always make the effort to make things better or make things right. wat do we base our choices on in the first plc?
Life is all abt learning. we neva stop learning. wrong choices teach us to make better informed ones in the future. ppl learn from mistakes and mature by adapting their decision making process. right choice, wrong choice. good choice, bad choice. actuali these r subjective aren't they? at e end of it all, u alone measure ur own choices n rate them according to ur own standards. then there's the natural choice n forced choice. wat eva it is, it all boils down to fate n destiny. the type of choices available to one's self is predetermined n y these choices appear is still a mystery to many. we make decisions evry single day of our lives but do we eva stop to think abt evry thing tt we decide. is eating nasi lemak versus mee rebus the ryt choice or was it a bad choice.
wat i'm trying to say is tt sometimes, we shldnt judge a person by the choices he/she makes. to us it may be wrong but to him/her it may be right. one man's meat is another man's poison. how do we ourselves decide whether the choice we make is correct? in my opinion, there's no ryt nor wrong. decide, action, adapt. the important thing is not to regret one's own choice. for me, it has been simple enuf, choose the road tt makes me happy, even if down the road it may turn sour, i'll wait for another fork in the road and pick it up fm there. make the best of evry situation n find the lining behind evry dark cloud. there's juz not enuf time to waste it on being stressed out. however, i've been guilty of tt too...haha
Wednesday 2 May 2007
The right piece
gd holiday break...had a hard time yest getting tics for Spiderman 3
seems like the whole Sgp was watchin the show yest. everywhere was fully booked even till the nyt shows n we were tryin to book since 2 pm. finally managed to buy tics at Princess for the 845 show.
lately, my decision making skills haf been terrible...tend to put myself in trouble too much
no one can actuali understand how i feel. hey i dun even noe wat's goin on wif me. it seems that my life is complete. looks like i got everythin i need. but there's a void, a missin piece. it's the all important center piece that i seemed to haf misplaced.
recently, i tot i found tat piece. happily i completed my jigsaw and carried on wif my life. however, as time passed, i realised that it was not an exact fit. there is still a gap. ppl tell me tt it's ok, it's juz a little space...mebe the manufacturers made a small mistake. the picture's still complete...but no...tt minute space is bugging me, mebe i should that space up wif watercolour or something..yet there was another piece that belonged to another puzzle. i admire that piece...also seems like a perfect fit but alas it belongs to another jigsaw. no two jigsaws are the same and sometimes it takes forever to complete one when all the pieces are jumbled up with other puzzles. it gets even harder wen u dun even noe whether the pieces u haf in ur hand are the correct ones.
have u heard the phrase made infamous by russell peters "Be a man! Do the right thing!" now i've been mullin over this over a few days now. we all seem to assume that we know what's right and what's wrong. but if u think abt it, there's actuali a fine line between the two. i mean it's basically personal perception on wat's right n wrong. of coz there r social norms tt we adhere to but then again there are times where it warrants us to do the exact opposite of wat is acceptable. so who actuali defines wat's right and wrong. apart from the judicial laws of individual groups, wen it comes to personal choices, i think it's within his/her own prerogative to decide wat's right n wat's wrong.
seems like the whole Sgp was watchin the show yest. everywhere was fully booked even till the nyt shows n we were tryin to book since 2 pm. finally managed to buy tics at Princess for the 845 show.
lately, my decision making skills haf been terrible...tend to put myself in trouble too much
no one can actuali understand how i feel. hey i dun even noe wat's goin on wif me. it seems that my life is complete. looks like i got everythin i need. but there's a void, a missin piece. it's the all important center piece that i seemed to haf misplaced.
recently, i tot i found tat piece. happily i completed my jigsaw and carried on wif my life. however, as time passed, i realised that it was not an exact fit. there is still a gap. ppl tell me tt it's ok, it's juz a little space...mebe the manufacturers made a small mistake. the picture's still complete...but no...tt minute space is bugging me, mebe i should that space up wif watercolour or something..yet there was another piece that belonged to another puzzle. i admire that piece...also seems like a perfect fit but alas it belongs to another jigsaw. no two jigsaws are the same and sometimes it takes forever to complete one when all the pieces are jumbled up with other puzzles. it gets even harder wen u dun even noe whether the pieces u haf in ur hand are the correct ones.
have u heard the phrase made infamous by russell peters "Be a man! Do the right thing!" now i've been mullin over this over a few days now. we all seem to assume that we know what's right and what's wrong. but if u think abt it, there's actuali a fine line between the two. i mean it's basically personal perception on wat's right n wrong. of coz there r social norms tt we adhere to but then again there are times where it warrants us to do the exact opposite of wat is acceptable. so who actuali defines wat's right and wrong. apart from the judicial laws of individual groups, wen it comes to personal choices, i think it's within his/her own prerogative to decide wat's right n wat's wrong.
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