Nov Weekend in KL

came back form KL yest. had a fruitful time there wif some new experiences and new things learnt.

One main thing i got out from the weekend was what P. Cox said, "Dreams are free. So stop worrying about what other people think". I guess it's true in a sense. many of us are so preoccupied with current situations that we forget to look at what is it we wanted. when we were young, we wanted so many things. one of the dreams i had was to own and fly my own airplane. but somehow along the way we lost track of wat we have been hoping for. as we grow up, we tend to put our dreams aside and conform to societal norms. but now, i was remade to think, is normal wat i want?

"If you do not change directions, you'll end up where you are heading to"

do i want to continue working for the next 30 years of my life. do i wan the life of my boss now? coz if i continue in this path, chances are, i'll end up like my bosses. money wld be good, but no time to do anything i wan.
by the time i retire, i wld be 62? by then, wld i haf the energy to do wat i wan to do?
let's do some calculations. to maintain my lifestyle wen i retire i'd probably need a minimum of $3000/mth.
that is $36k p.a. let's say i would wan to live to 80 (insyaallah), tt means i need $648k wen i retire.
that is if i decide to work to 62. 62!! however if i retire early at 55, tt means i need to save $900k.
now i have 24 years to save that amount, wic means $37.5k/yr, wic works out to $3125/mth of savings???? or i cld save $1.7k/mth n work till 62. but wat if i live past 80? then i got no more money. then i muz go back to work?

now, all that doesn't seem to be attractive, does it? so what do i do? change. Invest the only asset i have now, Time. It's been said that people do not change because they do not want to face the truth. The truth for me now is, i do not like how the future is looking for me. there are a lot of things i want to do and i want to live my old age worry-free. there are many ways this can be done, but what is the best way?

I Love You More

I LOVE YOU MORE (THAN YOU LIKE ME) lyrics THE STREETS
We haven't even started and it's almost the end

We never talked it over fact we never said anything

Two of the same kinda sorts hiding thoughts

As the small talk ebbs away the silence is awkward

You hardly even know me and I'm starting to show that

I hardly even know you but I like what I know

I want to talk about it but I quake in my skin

It'll only push you further into making decisions

You want to like me but you are likely undecided

The voice inside is always right which is why the awkward silence

Not gonna risk losing you

Which is why I'm never gonna woo-oo you



[Chorus]

I think I love you more, 

Than you like me

Although I'm never sure and maybe I should want to be blind

I think I love you more, 

Than you like me

Because this is even crossing my mind



Any other day and you'd have not looked twice

The joking went along with my roll of the dice

Purely by a chance I happened on feeling

Really confident around the place and people

You caught a no-hitter hitting winning strokes

I never am a winner, I'm a lonely bloke

Acting exciting like a man for a while

Until you realise I can act like a child

Eternal optimism is spurring me on to think

That acting on your ins like this

Might lead me to learn a secret

But I don't really know

Or why I think so

It's just a good hunch

Hunches are always right though



[Chorus]



I drew a drawing of you after last time I saw you

I never felt to draw a picture like that before

I learnt a lot about myself drawing all morning

It was absolutely shit, I'm awful at drawing



[Chorus] x 2

LyricsBay | I LOVE YOU MORE (THAN YOU LIKE ME) lyrics THE STREETS

Tetap Di Hati

Terkenang waktu kita bersama
Tiap kali kita bersua
teringat masa berbaju serupa
takkan kau kata kau terlupa

kau tiba bila kesepian
membawa bersamamu cahaya
aduhai tak berkekalan
kau hilang dalam bahagia

kau tetap di hati
takkan lelah menunggu
tiada pengganti
hanya kau yang satu

ku tak kesal mengenali dirimu
menyayangimu sementara
walau telahpun terluka hatiku
kau telah kenalkan ku cinta

ku bertanya
pada bulan dan bintang
pada gema dan suria
kemana gembira menghilang

kau tetap di hati
takkan lelah menunggu
tiada pengganti
hanya kau yang satu

adakah hanya ku teman biasa
seawal saat kita berjumpa
anganku alangkah indahnya
ku milikmu menjadi nyata

I am keeping the title secret but you r welcome to guess

Is when all is calm in the midst of a storm
Is full of meaning even when nothing is said
Is seeing fireworks everytime you look in the sky
Is hearing her voice in every conversation
Is seeing her face each time you close your eyes
Is hearing her name whispered by every breeze
Is missing her so much, it hurts
Is losing all sense, yet it is all oh-so-right
Is finding it hard to breathe when she is nowhere near
Is smiling watching her sleep
Is finding no flaws in an imperfect person
Is being born again every single day
Is the reason you wake up each day
Is wishing time stays still whenever you look in her eyes
Is a taste of Heaven on Earth
Is missing her even though she's right beside you
Is finding all reasons to be with her and no excuses not to
Is like discovering the eight colour of the rainbow on a rainy day
Is not being able to take your eyes of her
Is all, everything
Is .............................................................


(plus u r welcome to add to the list)

Please, Mr Sandman

i do not know wat's goin on. but for the past few days, i havent been gettin good sleep.
been disturbed by bad dreams. even wen i take a short nap in the afternoon, i cant get peace in dreamland. last night, i dreamt my end was near. i woke up scared.

it's been goin on for 5 days already and it's taking a toll on me. i noe i shouldnt be too concerned by it coz they r juz dreams anyways but it's weird. there are times wen ppl say dreams do come true. it's like dreams r messages that pre-empt you on wat's gg to happen. i noe it has happened to me b4, wen u dream of sumthin n the event ocurs a few days later. they may b coincidences or juz self-fulfilling prophecies since you r thinking too much abt it.

wateva it is, i m not doin so well. i need answers.