1st of July 2010

Gave it all
Created, conversed, adapted.
It ain't matter

Just words are thanks
Feel the hurt
I don't matter

All that angst
All that hatred
I don't bother?

How much more
Till I'm inducted
I don't matter

as of 13th June 2009

well, 2 full weeks of holidays are over...2 more weeks to go.

BUSINESS
been busy with my business. though i am not Core yet, it's already the 14th...shit 12 more plans to go. wll, at least Pacesetter's done. but i've been happy, very happy. Kumar commented earlier this afternoon that i'm smiling more as opposed to the first time he knew me in the business. the people i've come across has made my eyes open to the world we live in. no matter what i come across, gotta stay true to my dream. it's not gonna take days nor months but years. Emerald by 2012, that's the target for now.
Heck Platinum by nx June would be great too. maybe the option to be like Kumar can open up. Be a full time dad. Being "Umemployable". Wake up when i do finish sleeping. Calling people at work, opening a can of Coke, letting the sizzle pass through the phone line, putting the phone down on the green and "Whack", there goes the golf ball, getting back on the phone and saying, "That one's for you, mate!"

THE JOB
Youth day's in 3 weeks. I haven't made any planning yet for the concert. so far i only got one item confirmed. i didn't know it'll be this difficult to get volunteers. hey it's for the kids you know. something we can do to give back to them to show that we appreciate them, being our future leaders.....what's with people?! gotta sort this out on Monday or it won't be pretty wen term starts.

Need to key in the Napfa results also.....

THE PHLEGMATIC
I concluded that my personality is a phlegmatic choleric. n Apricot's is a Sanguine closet-Melan. it's a good match. a perfect match actuali. but her being Melancholic is putting a little strain on the union. She needs evrything in her life to be in order n i'm a mess. same ol complaints, "How come u dun talk?", "Boring ah you.", "He needs to be told what to do."

But i'm sure it'll work out fine. it will.

HEALTHPOINTE
Target: 65kg and body age a little closer to biological age (jfyi: my body age is 41 wen started and 40 as of tdy) by the end of this 45-day cycle. 7 days down....

This is the new beginning

Well, for those who actuali bothered to come back in here, you would be glad to know that i decided to add a few words today.

Work is still the same but more things are happening around me nowadays. maybe it's the conscious mind willing things to happen the way i want it to. A new chapter has begun, this time with a lot of promise. Being goal driven sorts of put things into perspective and makes life more fun aspecially when you are doing it with a special someone.

Still in the 5-year plan, juz came back from the KL weekend wif renewed vigour. with new skills and goals set, more activities have been carried out. but what is interesting is that i believe it is also helping me outside of the biz especially in my work area.

A tour of The Jungle House @ The Jungle Club , Koh Samui

Jit bungee in Samui

Dream Catch Me

- Newton Faulkner Lyrics

Nov Weekend in KL

came back form KL yest. had a fruitful time there wif some new experiences and new things learnt.

One main thing i got out from the weekend was what P. Cox said, "Dreams are free. So stop worrying about what other people think". I guess it's true in a sense. many of us are so preoccupied with current situations that we forget to look at what is it we wanted. when we were young, we wanted so many things. one of the dreams i had was to own and fly my own airplane. but somehow along the way we lost track of wat we have been hoping for. as we grow up, we tend to put our dreams aside and conform to societal norms. but now, i was remade to think, is normal wat i want?

"If you do not change directions, you'll end up where you are heading to"

do i want to continue working for the next 30 years of my life. do i wan the life of my boss now? coz if i continue in this path, chances are, i'll end up like my bosses. money wld be good, but no time to do anything i wan.
by the time i retire, i wld be 62? by then, wld i haf the energy to do wat i wan to do?
let's do some calculations. to maintain my lifestyle wen i retire i'd probably need a minimum of $3000/mth.
that is $36k p.a. let's say i would wan to live to 80 (insyaallah), tt means i need $648k wen i retire.
that is if i decide to work to 62. 62!! however if i retire early at 55, tt means i need to save $900k.
now i have 24 years to save that amount, wic means $37.5k/yr, wic works out to $3125/mth of savings???? or i cld save $1.7k/mth n work till 62. but wat if i live past 80? then i got no more money. then i muz go back to work?

now, all that doesn't seem to be attractive, does it? so what do i do? change. Invest the only asset i have now, Time. It's been said that people do not change because they do not want to face the truth. The truth for me now is, i do not like how the future is looking for me. there are a lot of things i want to do and i want to live my old age worry-free. there are many ways this can be done, but what is the best way?

I Love You More

I LOVE YOU MORE (THAN YOU LIKE ME) lyrics THE STREETS
We haven't even started and it's almost the end

We never talked it over fact we never said anything

Two of the same kinda sorts hiding thoughts

As the small talk ebbs away the silence is awkward

You hardly even know me and I'm starting to show that

I hardly even know you but I like what I know

I want to talk about it but I quake in my skin

It'll only push you further into making decisions

You want to like me but you are likely undecided

The voice inside is always right which is why the awkward silence

Not gonna risk losing you

Which is why I'm never gonna woo-oo you



[Chorus]

I think I love you more, 

Than you like me

Although I'm never sure and maybe I should want to be blind

I think I love you more, 

Than you like me

Because this is even crossing my mind



Any other day and you'd have not looked twice

The joking went along with my roll of the dice

Purely by a chance I happened on feeling

Really confident around the place and people

You caught a no-hitter hitting winning strokes

I never am a winner, I'm a lonely bloke

Acting exciting like a man for a while

Until you realise I can act like a child

Eternal optimism is spurring me on to think

That acting on your ins like this

Might lead me to learn a secret

But I don't really know

Or why I think so

It's just a good hunch

Hunches are always right though



[Chorus]



I drew a drawing of you after last time I saw you

I never felt to draw a picture like that before

I learnt a lot about myself drawing all morning

It was absolutely shit, I'm awful at drawing



[Chorus] x 2

LyricsBay | I LOVE YOU MORE (THAN YOU LIKE ME) lyrics THE STREETS

Tetap Di Hati

Terkenang waktu kita bersama
Tiap kali kita bersua
teringat masa berbaju serupa
takkan kau kata kau terlupa

kau tiba bila kesepian
membawa bersamamu cahaya
aduhai tak berkekalan
kau hilang dalam bahagia

kau tetap di hati
takkan lelah menunggu
tiada pengganti
hanya kau yang satu

ku tak kesal mengenali dirimu
menyayangimu sementara
walau telahpun terluka hatiku
kau telah kenalkan ku cinta

ku bertanya
pada bulan dan bintang
pada gema dan suria
kemana gembira menghilang

kau tetap di hati
takkan lelah menunggu
tiada pengganti
hanya kau yang satu

adakah hanya ku teman biasa
seawal saat kita berjumpa
anganku alangkah indahnya
ku milikmu menjadi nyata

I am keeping the title secret but you r welcome to guess

Is when all is calm in the midst of a storm
Is full of meaning even when nothing is said
Is seeing fireworks everytime you look in the sky
Is hearing her voice in every conversation
Is seeing her face each time you close your eyes
Is hearing her name whispered by every breeze
Is missing her so much, it hurts
Is losing all sense, yet it is all oh-so-right
Is finding it hard to breathe when she is nowhere near
Is smiling watching her sleep
Is finding no flaws in an imperfect person
Is being born again every single day
Is the reason you wake up each day
Is wishing time stays still whenever you look in her eyes
Is a taste of Heaven on Earth
Is missing her even though she's right beside you
Is finding all reasons to be with her and no excuses not to
Is like discovering the eight colour of the rainbow on a rainy day
Is not being able to take your eyes of her
Is all, everything
Is .............................................................


(plus u r welcome to add to the list)

Please, Mr Sandman

i do not know wat's goin on. but for the past few days, i havent been gettin good sleep.
been disturbed by bad dreams. even wen i take a short nap in the afternoon, i cant get peace in dreamland. last night, i dreamt my end was near. i woke up scared.

it's been goin on for 5 days already and it's taking a toll on me. i noe i shouldnt be too concerned by it coz they r juz dreams anyways but it's weird. there are times wen ppl say dreams do come true. it's like dreams r messages that pre-empt you on wat's gg to happen. i noe it has happened to me b4, wen u dream of sumthin n the event ocurs a few days later. they may b coincidences or juz self-fulfilling prophecies since you r thinking too much abt it.

wateva it is, i m not doin so well. i need answers.

As Days Pass By

As days pass by
Seconds ticks away
Hopes escalate
Reason to smile
Intensity magninifies
As days pass by

Torture me crazy
Make me senseless
Leave me breathless
Kiss me dizzy

I adore you in every way
Your every bit
Every move
Everyday

A new adventure

A new adventure
started full of promise
excitement in the air
of all those and these

Explosions within
calm exterior
filling with glee
electric bearer

Days mounted with anticipation
blood starts racing again
mental pictures are playing
breaking away from restrain

Emotions restirred
like a schoolboy all over
potentials expectant
A new adventure

Shocked, Happy, Irate, Rapturous, Annoyed

Quite an eventful september it has been for me.
At the start of the month, i had to send the black beauty, Jee Jee to the doctor, coz her front rack was smashed due to an unfortunate accident. so i got reacquianted with Baby Monster for about 2 weeks.

Then for the past three days, i've been quite happy. something has made me feel kinda like over the moon. still early to say but looks like it might last for some time. i hope it will. it actuali started last week bt was heightened since wednesday. however, this elation was marred by a surprising discovery.

I was withdrawing money from my acct and realized that more that 1k was missing. i was thinkin, it cldnt be that my salary was not credited in full. as i was fully absorbed by it, Shira gave me a great idea, "why don't you call DBS and find out?"..like duh, how stupid was i? there i was thinkin that either i need to go home to check my transaction history thru IB or go to the bank the nx day.

So i called, n wat the CSO told me shocked me. someone has withdrawn $1600 from an ATM from my account at 246am 12 sep. Hey, i was asleep at that time. n my ATM card is still with me. did i sleepwalk all the way to the ATM??

how did this happen? cloned card? but nobody had access to my card. wateva it is, i made the police report. spent 1 hour at Orchard NPC getting my statement recorded and making the report. I m super super pissed.

If i had that $1600 to spare, it might still take the sting out a little. but i need the money. there are many things to pay for, n that is like 2/3 of my pay. so this month i'm like down to playin ard wif 30% of wat is left, c wic bills r impt n wic ones i can skip. bloody hell. this is so inconveniencing me. To whoever that took the money, juz know that i will pray that you never leave the gates of hell. it is not a big amount of money but to me, it is. i will still survive but it has pushed me back a few months. the trouble that i'm being put into is just so damn irritating. and Raya is around the corner. looks like another solemn Raya for me.......

In response to my post on Mar 24 2007

Kristal dipilih
diberi harapan
hampir ditagih
tak kesampaian

kekurangan
kehilangan
ketakadaan
kebiasaan

Dicicirkan
kejarkan berlian
belum tercapai
tiada berdekatan

berharap
berhasrat
mengidam
kesempurnaan
dalam Berlian

Baby baby

juz got back fm malacca

Baby Jee Jee was involved in an accident on fri
nd to sort her out tmr

TDD 2008

The Dinner was held @ Bliss Garden Restaurant at Singapore expo. The theme was Starry Starry Night so we were encouraged to come dressed as stars or with star accessories. Here is what I came up with.

that explains it

The Boy Next Door Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLD) Kind, yearning, playful, you are The Boy Next Door. You're looking for real Love, a lot like girls do. It might not be manly, but it's sweet. We think the next three years will be very exciting and fruitful ones for you. Your spontaneous, creative side makes you a charming date, and we think you have a horny side just waiting to shine. Or glisten, rather. You enter new relationships unusually hopeful, and the first moments are especially glorious. If you've had some things not work out before, so what. On paper, most girls would name the Boy Next Door as their ideal mate. In the real world, however, you're often passed over for more dangerous or masculine men. You're the typical "nice guy:" without just a touch of cockiness, you're doomed with girls. A shoulder to cry on? Okay, sure. But never a penis to hold. More than any other type, Boys Next Door evolve as they get older. As we said, many find true love, but some fail miserably in the search. These tarnished few grow up to be The Men Next Door, who are creepy as hell, offering backrubs to kids and what not. Your exact male opposite: The 5-Night Stand Deliberate Brutal Sex Master Always avoid: The Nymph (DBSD) Consider: The Maid of Honor (DGLM), The Peach (RGLM)

Link: The Online Dating Persona Test | OkCupid - dating services | Dating My profile name: : Kxyreus

cara salam yang betul

> CARA BERSALAM YANG BETUL MENGIKUT ARAHAN KABINET...
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> Jawatan Kuasa Kabinet Malaysia mengenai Istiadat telah mengeluarkan
> Surat Pekeliling mengenai adab dan cara bersalam yang betul mengikut
> norma ke Malaysianan.
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> Cara bersalam yang betul
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> 1. Badan perlu dibengkokkan 90 darjah.
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> 2. Yang menyalam perlu memegang kedua belah tangan orang yang disalam.
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> 3. Sengetkan kepala ke kanan sedikit untuk mendapat feel yang lebih.
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> 4. Mulut cium tangan perlu dimuncung lebih kurang 1 inci.
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> CARA INI DI NAMAKAN
> 'BONAMA' iaitu...
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> BODEK NAK MAMPUS!!

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